Dear Aiesha...
it's been a long time since my last post...dont have any idea to write on this virtual message in a blog..
but..there's so much things happen around me...around u...

H1N1 is getting worst...there's a positive case in the camp...but thank God it is not a pandemic yet..
How do they get the H1N1 name..?

Influenza A virus strains are categorized according to two proteins found on the surface of the virus: hemagglutinin (H) and neuraminidase (N). All influenza A viruses contain hemagglutinin and neuraminidase, but the structures of these proteins differ from strain to strain, due to rapid genetic mutation in the viral genome.
Influenza A virus strains are assigned an H number and an N number based on which forms of these two proteins the strain contains. There are 16 H and 9 N subtypes known in birds, but only H 1, 2 and 3, and N 1 and 2 are commonly found in humans
-quoted from wikipedia-

hope we'll can get through all this...

The N in H5N1 stands for "Neuraminidase", as depicted in this ribbon diagram.

The H in H5N1 stands for "Hemagglutinin", as depicted in this molecular model.

(extracted from wikipedia)

Dear aiesha...
when you were young...
i always ask u what will u be when u grown up...u didn't say anything but i answered it on behalf of you...
"i want to be a doctor....!!!"

I always asked u.."sape dah besar nak jadi doktor angkat tangan..!"
and u raised up your hands...

i dont want u to be an engineer like me...for this reasons..
utmost strain to get degree,utmost tension with works, less paid ( base on work burden to penny ratio), tend to corrupt,responsibility become top priority..
and the most important things...GAIN NO RESPECT..!

if you're an engineer..
nobody will pat at your back when a marvelous gigantic structure being erected on this planet as people will smile and congratulate the architechs..!

nobody will say thanks to u when your innovations on medical tools saves someone's life as people will thank and hug the doctors...!

and people will curse u and cynically pat your back with sarcastic words when things fail and fall apart..and say.."you're corrupt...!"

engineers deserve respect for what they are...but it all faded away..

when the time comes...i hope u understand what's in my mind...

ps: and it's totally suck to be military engineers...!

hmmm..
.ecah,mama n ayah dah balik KK dah...
10 hari dok semenanjung...uruskan apa yang patut...

mama cite kat ayah, semalam mama bawak ecah gi KK...gi Plaza Warisan..kat situ ada indoor playground.. mama tinggal ecah ngan kakak fateha n ucuk kat situ..mama ngan mama kak teha,ucuk pegi beli barang kejap...balik dari beli barang, ecah hilang...puas mencari, last2 pak guard kat situ bagitau ecah ada kat control room security guard kat situ...mama kata ecah tak nangis pun..tgk sibuk tgk tv cctv kat control room tuh...
ayah marah betul...tapi tak tahu nak marah cemana...mama leka sgt...
bile mama cite tuh ayah dah terbayang mcmana kalau ecah betul2 hilang...ayah sian kat ecah nanti mesti nangis cari mama bile nak tido...nanti nangis lapar...ayah pun mesti asyik nangis je...

uhuhuuuuu

Dear aiesha...
esok ayah balik semenanjung...rindu dah kat anak ayah...nak balik n uruskan rumah yang ayah baru beli tuh..beli atas org...beli rumah tu pun sebab majority malay,dekat ngan masjid n tak crowded sgt...cuma tak tahu sekolah kat ne...tadika kat ne...sebelum ecah nak sekolah..ayah mesti posting balik semenanjung...mcm yg ayah penah ckp...ayah tak nak ecah sekolah kat sini...
kengkadang terfikir gak nak sekolahkan ecah kat chinese or international school...sbb ayah rasa handicap sgt tak leh nak ckp cina n tak leh nak cakap english fluenly with accent...kengkadang jeles gak tgk blog org sana sini yang bole write in english berbunga-bunga..ayah ada gak la kawan2 cine tapi bila hanging out ngan diorang..rasa ada satu gap bila tak leh faham apa diorang cakap..n irritating gak bile diorang tak leh cakap malay dengan baik...
hmmm...nantilah...ayah carikan ecah english pre school n english school...

mama tepon cakap ecah kena gegata la plak kat muka...hmm..habis satu muka gatal2...pastu demam balik pulak....hmmm....
ayah pun dah rasa malas nak keja...need break...tak pe..5/6 ni ayah balik la...cuti smpi 15hb

went you were away..

Dear aiesha...
la ni ecah kat semenanjung...kat umah nenek JB...ecah balik semenanjung ngan nenek,ngan mama ari tuh...masa kat kg BP mama tepon cakap ecah demam..sebab jangkit dr mama yang demam jugak..mama cakap ecah muntah n panas badan...hmmm...ayah dgr sedih sgt...sbb tak nampak ecah demam...tau tak..setiap kali ecah demam, ayah selalu mintak kat Allah pindahkan demam ecah kat ayah....kalau ecah demam...ayah yang nangis..mama ok sikit dr ayah...dia tenang je..ayah sian,ecah kecik lagi...sian tengok ecah demam tak pandai cakap, tak pandai ngadu...dulu ada skali ecah tercekik pil vitamin...ayah takut sgt...pil vitamin tu bentuk bintang...ecah makan sambil main...pastu tertelan kot....ayah takut sgt...
la ni mama tepon bg tau ecah dah ok...lega sikit
hari ni cuti umum kat sabah...Tadau Kaamatan...Pesta menuai la kiranya...dari semalam ayah dok umah je...semalam bangun pagi terus tgk cite korea "Full House"..CD mama punya..sehari suntuk tgk cite tuh...hmm...dulu ayah ada belaja bahasa korea...ayah ingat tak la hebat sgt apa yang ayah belajar dulu.tapi bile tgk cite tuh...almost 30% ayah still boleh faham la kalau tak de sarikata tuh...hmm..actually bahasa korea ni mudah je...ehehehe...
hari ni...ahad...ayah tak tau gi mana gi la berjalan ke KK..gi komplek karamunsing...sesaja jalan2..tgk LED TV by Samsung...LED TV ni technology baru lepas plasma/LCD TV...nice jugak la...very slim...kualiti gambar pun okey cuma maybe ada sikit2 cacat lagi la compare ngan LCD/plasma...maybe LED TV ni still 1st gen lagi kot compare ngan LCD tv yang dah 8th gen punya technology...harga LED TV nih pun still mahal lagi...40 inch pun dah cecah 5 angka...compare tu LCD/plasma yang makin kurang harga dia
lepas tgk2 TV tu..pegi lalau depan kedai bekam...teringin plak nak bekam...satu bekam RM15..in my mind,setakat cuma 2/3 biji baru RM45..tak pernah bekam pun...cume nak tahu apa benda bekam tuh...si tukang bekam tuh ajak masuk tgk2 la n check bape point nak kena bekam...tup-tup dia kata paling bagus 30 point....wah...dah dekat RM400 dah tuh...ahh...tak dak...tu saje je la tuh nak cas lebih tuh...pastu runding punya runding...buat la 10 point..dalam hati nak je cakap buat 2/3 point je...tapi malu plak...cis..
lepas habis bekam tuh...tak de la rasa apa pun...macam sia2 je bayar RM 150...tapi yang tak sedap hatinya bile tgk tools dia bekam...aisehh...mcm recycle je....tak hygine langsung...botol2 bekam tuh cuma dia lap ngan tisu je...rasanye needle yang dia guna pun recycle gak kot...habis bekam tuh hati risau je...kiranya sama mcm drug addict kongsi jarum la...sampai sekarang nih risau n asyik pikir pasal tu je...serius...risau sgt..takut kalau betul2 kena HIV ke...isk la..tak dapat bayang....cemana nih...
memang habis bekam tu mmg tak puas hati ngan tukang bekam tuh...memang ayah tak halalkan duit tuh...dah la tgk cara dia bekam main belasah je...pastu buat pun kejap je...tak hygine...tu la..aku gak gatal..apsal sebelum bekam x pikir benda2 mcm tuh...bile teringat benda2 tuh...rasa macam nak tumbuk je muka tukang bekam tuh...

Ya Allah...tolong la jangan jadi apa2...aku nak tgk anak2 aku membesar Ya Allah..
kat belakang ada lagi..total up 10 point...tu pun tukang bekam tu main belasah je...ayah cakap selalu lenguh kat leher...terus je dia buat kat leher....nampak sgt dia tak tahu apa2..main belasah je...

Selamat Hari Ibu...(Happy belated Mothers Day)

hmmm...

Happy Mothers Day...actually 8 Mei ari tuh...tapi tak tahu kenapa ayah bengong sangat lupa nak write something...no excuses...

Happy Mothers Day to mama ecah..walaupun ayah tak ucapkan kat mama ecah...
thank you for being a good mother to our children...
thank you for being a wonderful wife of mine...
thank you for everything you've done...
thank you for your patient on me....
in fact..
there's no words worth to say thank you to you....

Happy Mothers Day to Nenek
for what you've done to me...
i can't give u the whole world..
but i promise u
the warmest hug that i had...
the sweetest smile that i could ...
and everythings that makes u smile...



Happy Mothers Day to Kak Ngah
u know what u have done to me...
and i'll never ever forget it...
you're my sister,my mum,my strenght, my eyes, my voice and my mind
it is because you for what am i now..
thank you for everything

love all of you....from the bottom of my heart